Learning to Trust

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Our journey with mold lead to being forced to sell our home and get rid of most of its contents (and separate ourselves from the few belongings that we do have left in storage).  It’s shocking to realize that everything around you in your home, including your home is contributing to your sickness.*

When the realization set in that we would have to leave our home, I was devastated.  I love and long for security.

When the realization set in that we would have to leave our home, I was devastated.  I love and long for security.  My husband and I have been married for 9 years and have moved 8 times, not including when we were homeless in 2012, traveling.  If it were up to me, I would pick a “perfect” home to live in and stay there for 10 years or so.

Can my heart truly resonate with Timothy as he says, “For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either. If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content.”?

Our hearts have cried out to God in desperation for provision of these two things, especially as I have been reacting to so many foods, which is exacerbated when exposed to even small amounts of mold. “God, I don’t even have food!  I may have clothes (after throwing away my wardrobe and buying a few new), but I am finding it nearly impossible to even eat!

I think God has used this time of uncertainty and not having the security that I so desperately desire to build my faith in Him, and to show me the idols of my heart (in this case, security).  Do I really trust Him, and is He enough?  I’m still learning… 🙂


*Sickness for me has been a myriad of symptoms, with many being neurological/nervous system.  Partial paralysis, throat dysphagia, major mitochondrial dysfunction leading to weight loss and extremely low energy, feeling my body going into shock as my blood pressure lowers, my throat tightens, confusion and the inability to move my limbs easily are just a few of my mold symptoms. Read more here about the neurotoxicity caused by mold toxins, or mycotoxins.  Also find more info here on CIRS, or the Chronic Inflammatory Response Symdrome that mold causes, and more here about the damage potential of mold to a human body.


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